He's sweet and sensitive and I've known and loved him for years. He's monogamous and vanilla. I'm neither. I am giving monogamy a 6 month trial run to allay his insecurities and to switch the guilt load over to his side for a while. He gets horrified and cries when I tell him what I want. I'm really not even asking for much, twist my legs around, an occasional slap now and then. Getting a real beating that leaves me black and blue is going to be a long time coming I think. I don't like feeling judged. I don't like feeling owned. I'm a switch and he doesn't like getting hit. Yet I am sickeningly in love. Any suggestions?